Changes

When I was very young I had crazy ideas of what was possible. When asked what I wanted to be when I grew up I would say, "Either a doctor, or a Muppet." I think this points to two specific ideals. In one the idea that becoming a doctor would be attainable. A profession that takes a great amount of intelligence, but also an incredible amount of time. Then there is the other option, Muppet. I wanted to learn and help people, and I had a vast imagination where the boundaries between reality and the world of make-believe were blurry.

As the years passed I went through all the normal things a young boy does. One day I wanted to be the center fielder for the Detroit Tigers, or win a national championship with the Detroit Lions. This evolved into being a Rock Star, the girls swooning as I belt out a ballad with screaming guitar solos and crashing cymbals. A race car driver who sails past all the other cars like they're standing still and ends each day in victory lane, car gleaming not a scratch on it.

This brings me to the present day. Gone are the days of wanting to be a doctor. No Muppet aspirations lingering. The realization that of the very small percentage of people on this earth who are good enough to play professional sports, I am not one of them. Present day desires are much different. These days I take a look at my life and want much different things for myself. I want to be a good husband, to do the things that will show the love and care I have for my wife. I want to be a good father, to have the knowledge, patience, and love to raise my children to be respectful, loving, patient, and humble. I want to be a good Christian. To know God and be able to share his word and love with my family, and the world around me.

My goals these days at face value might seem more low key. Maybe they don't seem as glamorous or so unattainable. The thing is though that doing these things, are sometimes the hardest of all. My selfishness, laziness and greed get in the way and make being this man that I strive to be a very difficult task. I am so blessed in my life to have the people that support me, and care for me even when I falter. God shows me, through them, forgiveness, and patience.

So I'll never be a superstar, but what I am working to be these days is far more rewarding.